So. It’s been a while. Essentially, life got in the way.There was a point at which I just broke down and talked about everything with the nearest person around at the time (my dad). His advice helped a lot, and he encouraged me to tell Sync about my feelings. I did it in a non-confrontational sort of manner, pretty much saying that I had feeling for her but I wanted her to be happy and just asked her to lighten up on talking about her girlfriend while I was around. It was a lot easier, because as things were I was losing sleep, which added to me not being able to concentrate in class. And that was stressing me even more because trials were soon, and I had applications and major decisions about my future to make at the same time. I’m also pretty sure I was having an actual bout of depression at the time, but I haven’t seen a professional because it hasn’t happened before or since, and this was an exceptionally stressful year. So if you are in a similar situation to what I was, I would advise honesty from the get go. When I first realised my feelings, I could have told Sync, when she started dating, I should have told her the effect it was having on me. My life got a lot easier when I did. She and her girlfriend have since broken up, but I haven’t brought up my feelings again. Partly because we’re going to be spending two weeks in the same house with two of her exes and I don’t want it to be awkward. I think, if I get the chance, I’ll tell her afterward. She knows I had feelings, but I don’t think she knows I still have them. And it’s sorta something I have to do, even if she says no (which I fully expect her to). That’s the situation. I’ll let you know how it goes.
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